clearly, i too, like jessica, have lost my blogging thunder. i wonder what it is. i wonder why? i used to love spilling my guts on here, but now, i just don't feel like it anymore. that and the fact that nothing really exciting has happened in my life lately. nothing i care to talk about.

two posts in the last month...both utterly meaningless.

i apologize. but it is time for a break. i shall return, sometime soon. i am tired now...and studying for finals and trying to figure a lot of shit out. and still healing from st. patricks day where i found myself home, somehow, at 3:30 am with a bump on my head, dog crap on my shoes, and a bahamian one dollar bill in my pocket. perhaps, i made it all the way to the bahamams...oi! we'll never know.

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february 14, 2003

these i will not forget

i remember riding the bus
us...rushing to see a friends play
rain outside and late
we arrived to locked doors
i remember sharing secrets
and feeling close to you

i remember an early morning
sun hair glowing
naked beside me and
chris martin singing 'in my place' but
you didn't hear him

i remember being lost together
and sharing quiet moments
reflections in bed
are you asleep yet?

i remember you across the room
a red ribbon of light
as you danced
and i remember you and no one else

i remember quiet kissing
our first time together
behind black curtains
and everyone and no one knew

i remember coming to your room
but you were asleep
and catching you so beautiful
naked under the sheets
and your back was
all i saw and no one knew

i remember holding hands
at the beach together at night
resting on an old cedar
and the lights across the bay
in the tree and a story
and a kiss

i remember
your cheek against mine
and eyelashes were kisses
that made you laugh

i remember late night visits
and chocolate calendars
i remember eating together
being alone together
so that no one knew

i remember the way you felt
inside and holding you close
and i saw you looking back at me
until

i rememember standing outside
your new house and
crying and wishing
i could say more or not
have said so much

i remember a clock
shaped like an airplane
and you wishing i thought
that you were the cat's meow
and i did but didn't say it

i remember
making fun
out of your choice of baggage
you said i had issues
now this makes you
you

i remember holding hands
on the cab ride
with someone
we didn't know
just to take us home

i remember smoking
and how patiently
you waited even though
you were cold
and i cared

these i will not forget

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Congratulations Katie and Tim on your engagement...

Tim, I can't believe you beat out Mr. Corgan!

I couldn't find any pictures of the two of you together otherwise I would've posted one. I know you guys will make each other happy. Oh earls...thank goodness for earls.

Love,
your brother and future brother

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